You know how they say cycling is a skill you can’t really unlearn? You learn it some time in your youth, and eons may pass before you get back on a bicycle, but after the initial wobbliness, you’re pretty much good to go again. I wish blogging was like that. Unfortunately, blogging is more like… yoga. Or exercise in general. You’re in good shape as long as you’re doing it and you don’t really have any problem keeping up the momentum, but one day, you bust out the “I just don’t have the time!” excuse, and before you know it, it’s been three years and you’re all stiff joints and achy muscles, cursing yourself for ever letting go in the first place.
This is me stretching those achy muscles. To be honest, it’s not like I’ve completely abandoned this place in the last three years. Six sentence-long drafts, written at different points of time, stand testament to the fact that during occasional bursts of optimism, I tried to get back on the wagon, only to be let down by my startling lack of creativity. When the words didn’t flow, I resorted to tinkering with the layout, but you can only change background colours and move around your widgets for so long before it’s back to blank screens and blinking cursors. At some point after that, I just gave up for good.
Here I am once again, though. Things in my life have worked in a way that has opened that optimism gate just a wee bit, the brain is cooperating with some creativity, and I’m running with it. I’m not really sure why I believe this particular resurrection will stick, or how it’s different from the previous six times (seventh time’s a charm, I guess?), but maybe it’s time to stop questioning why things happen or trying to predict what will happen and just live in the present. I felt compelled today to change the tagline of this blog to “one foot in front of the other”, and for once, I’m going to try and take my own advice.
For now, the drafts have been deleted, the layout has been tinkered with (old habits die hard) and a new post has been published. Let’s see where it goes from here.