I don’t know how to tell you this without hurting your feelings, but since it’s got to come out some day or the other, I’ll just say it as it is.
It’s over. We’re over. I’ve been dropping hints for the past three months to try and make this very moment less painful for both you and me, so I sincerely hope this news isn’t coming out of the blue.
For what it’s worth, I’m sorry. Sorry about ending this at a time when things have been pretty peaceful between us. I know we’ve not had any major problems recently, but that’s sort of why I’m doing this now. Another breakdown is inevitable, you know that. I don’t want us to wait until that moment to sort things out and eventually leave each other in an ocean of anger and bitterness. I want us to part on good terms. I want us to cherish the good times we had together, because let’s face it – we did have quite a few.
You know, speaking of good times, I remember seeing you for the very first time in China Town. It was love at first sight – you were everything I’d ever dreamed of. I remember thinking you were way out of my league, so you can imagine my surprise when things turned out the way they did. I was ecstatic! You were mine, my very first, and I couldn’t have asked for anything more.
My brother wasn’t very happy. I think he knew from the get-go that we weren’t meant to be and even stated as such, but when I argued against it, he left it at that. The darling that he is, I think he wanted me to come to that conclusion by myself, without being forced. I wish now that I had listened to him – it would’ve saved you and me both two years of misery.
I might have been too ecstatic about our fresh new relationship to see at first, but looking back now, I realize that we were flawed from the very beginning. I can’t remember the number of times we went to see someone to get help. To fix things. It always seemed to work, and then a month or two later, things were back to square one. We never seemed to make any progress. There even came a point when our unsteady relationship started affecting my relationship with my friends. I don’t ever want something like that happening again, and if I stay with you, I don’t think I can guarantee that.
So it’s time for me to let you go. I’ve found another, and we’ve been getting along really well so far. I want you to know that I’m not doing this to hurt you in any way. I just need to be in an uncomplicated, friendly relationship right now. You were my very first, and for that I will always love and remember you. But it’s time to move on.
So, goodbye. It’s been … an interesting two years. I won’t ever forget you, and I wish you all the very best for the future. *muah*
Don’t be scandalized – I haven’t dumped my boyfriend. Erm, actually… I don’t have one at all. These are the “sweethearts” I was talking about – my ex (left) and my current darling (right). Aren’t they precious? 😀
… I just have low expectations, alright? 😐